I started to pack yesterday and had a minor meltdown gathering up photos of happier days with my family, etc. Jane-Anne came over and we took a break up on the hill. Things are always better up there sitting in the Muskoka chairs my son Todd made, absorbing the view that goes on for miles and gnawing at the bones of life, trying to find the marrow with a good friend.By the time Jane-Anne left, I was in a much healthier frame of mind and so continued my packing until after midnight.This morning at church, I bumped into an old [...]

Yay!!! June 7th is only four days away! Just four more sleeps until I see the mercy and grace of God once more.The past four years have been such an incredible time of learning to trust God. When I sold our home, after all of the legal expenses were paid and I extricated myself from the mess, there was nothing left to start life over again. Time after time, God stepped in with a miracle and provided.One time, while I was still packing the house, I was upset because it was my son's birthday. Our tradition was to have everyone [...]

Here we are in my moving month. The only things standing between me and home are 27 days, packing all my stuff and $40,000. that I don't have right now.I've been checking Google analytics to see whether anyone is following these words I write everyday. Despite the fact that only two brave souls (thank you Sarah and Candace) have declared themselves as followers, there are over 70 people checking it out regularly. However, interest has begun to decline slightly in the past couple of days because there's not much happening. I went with friends to see Canada Day fireworks last [...]

My friend Jane-Anne was over today and we were talking about "the situation" and how we both have a deep-down peace about this whole thing. I feel as though I am finally learning to "wait on God." I have spent a lot of years fretting about this and fretting about that. In the end, God has always worked things out. All the fretting was for nothing. The lesson has been a long time in the learning!Wednesday by midnight will tell the tale. Miracle? No miracle?There will be a miracle.

Today I have two main thoughts rumbling around in my mind, sometimes intersecting, one sometimes allowing the other to occupy center stage.First of all, I'm somewhat uncomfortable with this blog being all about me. The Christian walk is supposed to be about focusing on others. I comfort myself with the hope and reasoning that through exposing my own struggles, I am encouraging others in the knowledge that they can trust God when they go through hard patches in their lives. That's really the purpose for this daily blogging exercise.The other thought is more a rumination than a concrete thought.This morning [...]

I yi yi! Just 30 days until the moving truck arrives.I don't know exactly what's happening with God, but feel as though something is up. There is a convergence of circumstances which I do not believe is coincidental.I have been designing the Crossroads Compass for 26 months and have loved doing it, but because of the merger of Crossroads and CTS, they are now able to produce it internally and so the July issue was my last. Then there's the matter of my b-day which, this year, signals the commencement of a regular income starting in July (you know - [...]

I paid my last rent cheque today for the apartment in which I've lived for four years. How time flies! This has been such a lovely place to live - perfect in every way with its rolling lawns, privacy and country beauty. Had my landlord not needed the space for his new family, I would have been quite content to stay for the rest of my years.Yesterday, I spoke with a man who I regard as one of the world's great Bible teachers. He had spoken to me about doing four books for him, but is not able to proceed, [...]

Have you ever felt all alone in a group?That was me tonight.Following another great Sunday morning at the Embassy, Lola (my cockapoo) and I spent the afternoon with wonderful friends close to Port Hope. It was a great time of discussion, prayer for each other, laughter and good food. There was a guitar there and a keyboard and everyone was happy singing favourites.Normally, I would have been thoroughly enjoying it. It had all of the elements for my favorite way to spend time. Instead, I found myself fighting back tears all through the singing. Despite the fact that I was [...]

More pics! The colours look different because the lighting and cameras are different.Kim and I went out to the house today because the seller wanted to show us the fine points of his construction and determine the positioning of the backyard fence, etc.I feel as though God has already answered my prayer for funds for the down payment. I haven't seen the cash in the bank yet, but I believe that it's there "in the Spirit." It has already been done. I'll see the evidence by July 7th. It will be so amazing to be able to remove the condition [...]

Signed, sealed, delivered and accepted! - an offer on "my" house conditional only on arranging the down payment. I can hardly believe that things have progressed this far! Today, sitting in the real estate office, hammering out the details with the seller, I really had to pinch myself to believe that this was real. Remembering the devastation of four years ago when I was left with nothing – and now being approved to purchase my own home is truly amazing. I am getting very excited.I am not at all worried about the down payment. God will walk me through it [...]